On Christmas Eve, I was sitting in church, looking around and couldn't help but noticed the married couples snuggled close together, enjoying the holiday together and in love.
I felt as if I was the only person sitting there alone with no hope of finding love. A few tears slipped out but I was able to compose myself and keep on listening and smiling when I needed to.
It's not always easy to remember that I still have God's love...and sometimes it just doesn't help to hear that. I know He loves me and He is all I need but how can I feel happy while watching couples embrace and show each other their love for one another.
I am so thankful to have Mama. She makes me feel loved and needed, she's always happy to see me and eager for me to embrace her so she can sneak a wet kiss in. Having Mama to love and cuddle with certainly makes me feel a lot less lonesome but obviously, as a human, I still need more. I truly am starting to believe I am destined to be alone and just have a big house full of animals..and I know that won't be so bad. However, people will think I'm really weird and crazy, and they'd be right.
I think the love that an animal has for his or her owner is the closest to God's love that I've ever experienced. No matter what you do to them, they will still love you, eagerly wait for your return even if you were only gone for 5 minutes, and stare at you with a look of amazement (that's what Mama does to me at least). I've never felt so special and needed.
I know what you're thinking, I'm a little strange and creepy but I know that the heart I have for animals and the way I feel about them was planted inside me when I was young by God. Not everyone will feel the same and there are many people that will never, ever understand. Those are the people that don't consider pets a part of the family, leave them in the cold, and forget to feed them. I strongly dislike those types of people.
When I started writing I was kind of sad, but now I am just thankful that I have Mama and the unique heart that I do.
